Sunday, July 28, 2019

frost




finds joy in music and

                in silence



sits in the same blue room his

marriage fell apart in

but no longer writes about it



those days are dead and gone,

like kahlo and pollock,

like ernst, and the

sky here bleeds beyond its borders



the woman he loves sends him

letters from 3000 miles away



he goes to bed depressed,

wakes up frightened,

stumbles out into the painful

light of too many ordinary hells



wonders when time

became the enemy



why his scars are only

beautiful when no one else

can see them




Wednesday, July 24, 2019

miro's gun




minotaur at the water’s edge,
end of winter,  a
direct hit

the days all laid out in
delicate tangled webs of
silence & despair and
fear is a weapon, yes,
but not yours

the hands can be broken,
the heart pulled out

the children can be
made to sing

show them their
mother on fire

let them see the
humor in human misery

all of these fuckers who will
tell you that they’re not
monsters, and what they all
have in common is that
they’re monsters

all of these gods
demanding your obedience

your money

you call it politics or
you call it religion and
                      either way
                        you bleed




Saturday, July 20, 2019

diogones








and nothing and
nothing and then ten
below zero at five thirty in the morning

  

no FOR or AGAINST
no TOWARDS or AWAY

  

am just trying to remember how to
breathe and how to be



am through believing in gods



in heroes


am moving from room to room
with absolute clarity and i
 
need a gun or a window or the
doorway to a different kingdom



need to be a fist



a believer in those happy
days of open wounds



a priest waiting to
fuck or be fucked

  
i would give you hope if i could
just for the pleasure of
taking it away again




Monday, July 08, 2019

Friday, July 05, 2019

and laughter and meaningless joy




the storm and then the

silence before the storm that follows



pale yellow skies over car crashes

and prayers and the

steady buzz of insects



the river

where your son took his life



the hills repeating themselves

endlessly in all directions



you get tired of being told

what to do but so what?



your choices come down to a

diet of bitter shit or a

diet of starvation, and even these

are offered grudgingly



and so you live or you

die and the world keeps

crawling forward



the house on fire

becomes

the palace of ashes



call it home



dig your grave



you have a long life ahead

of you still, but

it’s best to be prepared