https://www.amazon.com/dp/8119228138
https://www.cyberwit.net/publications/2103
https://www.amazon.com/dp/8119228138
https://www.cyberwit.net/publications/2103
this is the one time you
will ever see your mother cry,
so pay attention
six, seven months pregnant and just the
two of you in the house,
exposed,
isolated,
and the wooded lot just across the street
the laughter and the whistles,
the idea of rape tossed out lightly like
a dove from open hands
rocks thrown from behind the trees and bushes and
then the sound they make against the
side of the house,against the living room window,
and where are the neighbors?
why is there no passing traffic?
not today
and she stands just to the side of the glass,
behind the curtains,
and do you remember being ignored?
do you wonder why you never
wondered where your father was?
why this is all only told
from your own limited point of view?
and then there they are, no warning,
the tears,
silent and luminous and maybe
your breath catches in your throat
maybe your heart misses a beat
and you stay where you are,
and you watch
you remember everything about this moment,
but you forget growing up
bits and pieces, sure, but
the bigger picture is blurred, is ripped and torn,
pages missing, images distorted, and
does the moment end?
it must, because here you are
all these wasted years later, children of
your own and a whole net set of fears,
but who to ask?
who to tell?
best to keep quiet, to bleed cautiously and
only in darkened rooms
best to get drunk or stoned,
maybe laid, and
best to just bite your tongue
maybe turn the radio up and sing along
stand back out of sight while the
moment is played like a fixed game,
while it stretches and darkens,
while despair continues to build in
the pit of your stomach
this new golden age of elastic time where
nothing ever ends
and all of us are marked
a hand on the doorknob?
a mouth opened up to scream?
the first day of the black hole your
life will inevitably become
Gotta love the snowflakes. Free speech only for those who think the same
narrow thoughts as them.
Let’s bring it down a
bit with some lighthearted verse.
And the cat again, because the cat kicks ass.
christ the saviour
another day of no sun of no
money no drugs and
in the silences between breaths
there is only waiting
in the fields that move from
the edges of town to the collapsing
hills there are only weeds
and mud
the ragged coughs of feral dogs
who have learned to walk on
their hind legs
have learned to fuck for pleasure
and to torture for even more and
will you remember where you were when
you heard about cobain’s suicide?
will you let your children keep the
skulls they find along the
freeway’s edge?
it’s a brave idea to not believe in
killing, but it won’t
help you at all down in juarez
because your tears will have nowhere
to go when the ditches are all
filled with corpses
those in power will wash themselves
clean in the blood of the weak
this is the only real truth
that history has to offer
in the age of fear,
be the enemy of tyrants
in the age of ignorance,
believe only in truth
fuck the addicts and the
whores who
sell their asses for power
fuck the kings of pestilence and
the queens of disease,
and fuck all of their sycophants
every castle can be
burned to the ground
every flag is meaningless
use them for wrapping corpses,
for wiping your ass
believe in the
sovereignty of one
pledge allegiance
only to trust
in such obvious ways,
change the world
in the sunlight taking
pictures of falling water
in the moment
worried about the future
and denying the past
and none of us born w/ the
knowledge that all words
are empty gestures
the answers to every question
about worth and about
value given only in
terms of money
the failure that comes from
having none of it
children at the front door
with eyes full of hope and
empty hands or the ones
left dying in the street
man w/ a gun aims it at
your heart, says help them and
he’ll shoot
is saving just one any
better than
saving none at all?
has the sky ever been so
perfectly blue as it was on
the last day of your life?
it’s not the absence of joy or
the absence of beauty that
brings you here, but
the abundance
the transience
the knowledge that you have
thrown away more
than you will ever get back