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dorothea, max

 

 

 

dominion

sunlight like the fist of god
and then all of the days
i've wasted with my eyes closed

this quiet house on this
dead-end street in this
dying town

will you stand beside it
while it burns?

will you stand outside the
room of hanged men
and count backwards from twenty?

and what if it's here that i
finally tell you i love you?

i believe in words
no matter how often they fail me

i believe in july and in august
and that all of my promises
will be broken

look at my hands

both of them open and
both of them empty and
waiting for the moment to pass

waiting for their mistakes
to be forgiven

whatever you say in the silence
that surrounds us
never the poem that i
wanted to hear

 

 

 

the way it happens

this man on the bridge
falling or jumping
or holding a rock with both hands

dropping it
and the windshield of the car below
parting like violent water

the woman's face split in two
and your sister on the phone
saying she's pregnant

blood pooling on the floor where
you've left the idea of a mother
murdering her son with a butcher knife

the sky where it
pours itself over the landscape

the rock as it falls and the woman
as she turns to her husband and smiles

the pair of hands attached to a
person that no one knows

these fifteen crosses planted in
the ground in colorado
and the fact that nothing grows

your sister on the phone
saying she lost the baby

saying the blood
won't come off her hands
and the fact that nothing falls
out of the sky

the way she describes
the fetus to you

the idea that
none of these wars can ever
really be won

the man on the bridge jumping
and then falling
and then breaking through the ice

his apartment
and all of the places
a note was never left

all of the people it was
never addressed to

the body not found until spring

in the kingdom of reviews

 

 

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the door locked, the house burned down

this pointless action,

this screaming, this putting your
fist through a window or
pulling a trigger

what a fucking bore

knowing suicides
knowing addicts

what a fucking hassle

these tiny crippled fingers always
grabbing at your throat

what a goddamned joke when

all days are the same

from THE SUM OF BROKEN PARTS

10.

i am the only child of

the one true god
and i am in hiding

i am silver and i am

gold in the age of famine

motherless and broken

stoned

no ladder to the sky no

more precious metals to
dig up from the earth
and so we die in the
world we’ve created

we are reborn into the

world we destroyed

a circle carved into

your lover’s flesh

a new day

wake up slowly and

without regret

crawl down the stairs

and out the back door

smile blindly into the

unforgiving sky
while our sons and
daughters burst into
                     flames

static

the sea of static

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

mary's house

yellow light into grey,

       end of november,

             almost warm,

          almost hopeful,

and when you’re tired of being an artist or

      when you’re tired of bleeding for minimum wage,

      when you’re tired of sorrow,

                           tired of breathing,

there’s always suicide and

it’s not like i’m telling you something new here

it’s not like i’m saying

anything at all

BRAVE   RETREAT

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

the lost and the missing

half-seen

ALL SIGNS POINT TO SORROW

HERE IS THE DOOR

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

psalm with the weight of nails through flesh

pale yellow sunlight on

the bleeding horse
and the shadows he casts swallowed by
the shadow of something larger

the houses ending suddenly where

these barren fields begin

wind and the smell of gasoline

and the sound of the interstate

the idea of somewhere better

which is probably a lie

there is no escaping disease

there is no escaping addiction

look at these men

who have died for god
and then look at the catholic church

look at the diseased fingers

of priests
picking through the bones of
the past

count the number
of children raped in the name of
salvation
 

there is

so much left to destroy

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falling from great heights into vast oceans

strange standing here naked

with a gun to my head,
but this is the new world

wanted to move out to california,

but i was tied to this house, to
this job, to these children

woke up sweating and terrified

from a dream with no meaning

heard water in the basement

tasted rot, tasted decay

not sunlight, you understand,

but this numbing sensation
of suffocation

this false hope of

50 degree afternoons
at the beginning of february

the threat of freezing to death

replaced by the threat
of drowning

the feeling of rust flaking

down from great heights
onto bare skin

and did i mention the gun?

can you picture the hills

all painted a
soft, despairing grey?

we will never be more in

love than we are at this moment

we will never be more alone

choose, but then keep

your choice a secret

talking about famine

FAMINE

 

 

 

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and we thought that when the war was over the blood would all flow backwards, and we were wrong

or living like a wounded animal, which

isn’t really the same thing as living,
but there you are in your collapsing hole
with your open wounds and your blood trail

here we are after 25 years of winter

½ a lifetime spent digging at the same

small patch of frozen ground with bare hands

low tide

faulty compass

and what i find out too late is

that anger isn’t enough

is that silence isn’t an alternative to

suicide, but a slower version of it and so
                                            we scream
 

we make ourselves such easy targets

open the door and all of that pale, blinding

sunlight just blows holes straight through you

w/ wings of clay

small gestures at the end of

summer, these anonymous lawns,
weed-choked flower beds, these
spider webs spun between branches
and the corners of windshields in
the first damp light of day, and
i would tell you here that i
love you but my voice would be
a whisper and you would be
3000 miles away

i would give this poem your

name as it’s own, but
futility gets old quickly

the children are hungry and

the ceiling cracked

the age of plague

nearly upon us
 
i will keep repeating this
until it becomes the truth

christ the saviour

another day of no sun of no

money no drugs and
in the silences between breaths
there is only waiting

in the fields that move from

the edges of town to the collapsing
hills there are only weeds
                           and mud
 

the ragged coughs of feral dogs

who have learned to walk on
their hind legs

have learned to fuck for pleasure

and to torture for even more and
will you remember where you were when
you heard about cobain’s suicide?

will you let your children keep the

skulls they find along the
freeway’s edge?

it’s a brave idea to not believe in

killing, but it won’t
help you at all down in juarez
because your tears will have nowhere
to go when the ditches are all
filled with corpses

those in power will wash themselves

clean in the blood of the weak

this is the only real truth

that history has to offer

ON FIRE

BURNING WORD

NEW NEWNESS

BRAVE RETREAT

the bleeding horse despairs in the face of all that cannot be changed

this wall of heat until you can no

longer clearly remember the darkest days
                                                of february

the laughter of children and

the hum of air conditioners

trickle of sweat

between your lover’s breasts

and what hope can you have for the future

when your religion is based on blood
and violence, and why would you kiss the
feet of a savior who wears a halo of ashes?

why would kiss the

feet of anyone at all?

listen
 

i am tired of the burning house

i am tired of the weeds

that devour the garden
 

once you move past the idea of

immortality, you begin to see clearly
 

once the last dollar has been spent, you

begin to see the attraction of despair
 

and do you understand why

bukowski’s death doesn’t matter?

do you understand he would have had

nothing but contempt for you?

and this is true of dali also, of course,

and of reagan, and once the villagers have
all been locked inside the church
the priests light the torches

they line up the bulldozers and they

explain that all true gods take sides

they turn politely away

while the women are raped

it’s a sad fucking world when the

only thing we can
think to beg for is forgiveness

gossamer cathedral

girl has a mother

but the mother is dead,
                  girl is dead,
carpet heavy with blood and,
outside,
the suffocating weight
of august sunlight

buzz of cicadas

poets with nothing better

to write about than
their own sad little lives

waiting for rain

and all afternoon the slow grinding

roar of factories pumping out
blood and despair and
all afternoon the stench of gasoline and
burning cars carried in on a steady
wind from the south

all afternoon the

sky a luminous silver, a delicate
shade of purple and the hills all
smudged & blurred against it

the sun at uncertain intervals

the tentative shadows of bare trees

across well-manicured lawns

when did you become so

fucking afraid of everything?

widow poem 1

silver sun in a

bone-white sky, which makes it
easy to confuse living
with being alive

helps the pills go down easier,

but the hands are still cold

the suicides refuse

to give up their beliefs

won’t laugh, won’t cry,
won’t give me any reasons
for what they’ve done

just stand their bleeding

onto all of my poems

TENETS OF DEMOCRACY

1.

no one you elect
gives a shit whether you
live or die as long as there is
profit to be made at
your expense



2.

no one you elect
gives a shit whether you
live or die as long as there is
profit to be made at
your expense



3.

no one you elect
gives a shit whether you
live or die as long as there is
profit to be made at
your expense

the fade out

nothing to say really
but no one trusts a quiet man

no one trusts a television that
isn’t turned on

need fucking NOISE need the
rush of caffeine and sugar, the
lies of politicians and the empty
platitudes of priests as they
rape your sons

need the color red and the
steady buzz of neon tubes

need a gun in each hand

so much killing to be done in
the space of
just one lifetime

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holes through me

or the horse in yr
heart swimming through
oceans of pain
or the clocks that tell
only lies

this is you in dali’s room,
the end of the war,
corpses caught in frozen mud

you want them to sing
but the song has no words

you want them to apologize
but the words have no meaning

the mouths are
filled with gravel

with bloodsoaked truths

take the ones you need and
call them yr own

rape the priests who
would do you harm

let their despair be
all you need

victor safonkin, eurosurrealism

vladimir kush, russian surrealist

the classics

HUMAN CATHEDRALS

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latest collection

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in the kingdom of oblivion

keeping score

small hope like sunlight on
shimmering treetops, like a sky the color
of luminous dust

take the silence you’ve been given

hold it close to your heart

the children are tired of despair, are tired
of starvation, of revolution,
and so what are you going to do?

how far are you willing to crawl in a
desert of your own creation?

if i were a liar, i would tell you
there can be no wrong answers

if i were honest, i would turn away

do you remember the
life you had before?

do you remember the ocean?

i am a believer in easy escapes,
in walking away from pain and sorrow

i take comfort
in the gentle haze of distance

i find despair
around every corner

open your eyes, for christ’s sake

icarus, motherfucker

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ceremony of beasts

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4th of july

90 degrees by ten in the morning, dirty
silver sky and you were telling me i
was nothing and i was watching you bleed

i was a believer in
time and in distance

in failure

house smelled of decay, of brutal heat and
damp corners and we were waiting for the
parade with our flags in tatters

we were writing letters to the dead and
dreaming of answers that would never arrive

dog was chained to a
tree and starving to death

child playing at the edge of the road and
i was crawling across the bedroom floor

was looking in the other direction
when i heard someone call my name

looked back and the child was gone

NEW YEAR, NEW BOOK, SAME OLD DOWNWARD SPIRAL

CONTINUUM

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tentative notes from the village of dust

not sleeping and not
breathing and instead she is found
in a suitcase at the bottom
of a lake

the rules of war are spelled out
in blood and in shit across
the bedroom walls of
all your lovers

it’s okay, you see

you can laugh
in the face of atrocity

you can eat the
ashes of witches

cut holes in the
body of the christ child

bask in the glory of whatever
dim light shines through

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MORTAL CORKSCREW

slow drift into exile

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rusted awkward movements

some older stuff

high

december, january, and all of
the ordinary horrors

sixteen year-old girl drowns her
newborn baby in the toilet

box full of maps

room full of nothing

tried to sustain my anger,
but i couldn’t

there were bills that
needed to be paid

small dogs crawling on their
bellies through shit & filth

potholed roads

you want to drive to the ocean
but can’t get past the hills

it’s a joke told by a man whose
eyes have been gouged out

you laugh with him
or you laugh at him

you find the body in a landfill

flowers push up through
the bones of forgotten saints

all of our darkest dreams
make perfect sense in the
bitter grey light of day

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was kissed by ghosts, was weeping

find the ocean just inches
below the desert's surface &
then wait for rain

this is the kingdom of false prophets

these are the bones of old lovers

no one here
wants to be your friend,
but being an enemy has value
too

wars cannot be fought
without cowards

children cannot be raped
without the cold embrace of priests

what matters isn't the truth,
but how pretty the
lies can be made to sound

what matters is power

the shame of being poor is a gift
given freely by the rich

houses built by the hands of
beggars can only fall

you will stand naked in
the ruins of everything you've
never owned and wait like a dog
for the kindness of strangers

sun & the moon

like death she said or
like dreaming,
and then she tore off the
baby’s wings

then she laughed
about what she’d done

SUNPOISON

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one for the man wrapped in barbed wire

or the sudden and undeniable knowledge
that all you are is an asshole

the broken wings of birds

the bones of all the
children you’ve watched starve to death

such a huge fucking feast of misery
laid out for you to grow fat on

holy days: an attempt at chiaroscuro

strange to end up lost in this
house i’ve called home for
fifteen years, and strange to
spend so much time considering
suicide on these bright
blue mornings

if you were here with me,
you would be beautiful and stoned

if we had children, they would
learn to live with disappointment

they would understand the
inevitability of being born in
a building on fire

NEW AESTHETIC, NEW WORK

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servitude

It’s the age, yes, and it’s the war.
The naming of the enemy, the gift of
destruction, and this man I know, his
son, a soldier, a child, burned alive
inside his metal fortress, and so we
speak of revenge, we speak of God, of
victory, of the need to win this thing
that cannot be won, and the mother
cries in the boy’s room. The women
in the villages are raped and then
murdered. Are gutted, then left for
the dogs. What their flesh tastes like,
i’m told, is freedom.

AS GRUMPY AS I WANNA BE

Interview w/ me at THICK WITH CONVICTION.

Could I be more entertaining?

miro, dreaming

with thousands of birds
singing or screaming

fields of mud and snow

10,000,000 miles of road
between susan and maria and
one of them to love and one
of them to fuck

are you anywhere
that can be mapped?

have you been mouthing these
same words for too long now?

look

the plane goes down in flames

accusations are made
and victories declared

the churches
are set on fire

what this accomplishes
isn’t immediately clear

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prophetstown, before and after

everything turned
suddenly to desert

the women raped and
the children missing

tenskwatawa
pulled from the fire

brings a vision
back with him

not the death of
everyone and everything
he loves, but this is
what happens anyway

this is the
birth of america

newwwwwwwwwww work

THE WHISTLING FIRE

2:23 a.m.

and you write about death,
of course,
because it’s what you fear, and you
write about despair because
it’s what you know

the truth isn’t always a fist,
but it’s best to be prepared

america, big and small

a box filled with smaller worlds
in a room heavy with dust

old man in a chair at the window

city buried in
its own mindless filth

freedom was never a gift
intended
for the poor or the weak

subtle ascension

wake up to rain on the
morning after the massacre,
and to the knowledge that
it will all happen again

stand naked on the sidewalk
among the dying flowers,
the burnt-out candles,
the prayers that have all
washed away

this is not your home

these children with their
tear-stained faces will
never love you

you have always
been a coward

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a shroud

but don’t be america

don’t be the old man sitting
next to his filthy window

the trigger is pulled
and the hero has no name

all wounds are greater
than they appear

hold the child above your head
and view the sky through
the hole in its chest

remember the kingdom of god

remember the island of skulls

stand in the spot where
opposites meet and feel the
wings start to grow from
your shoulder blades

this is beyond magic and the
dull grimy walls of religion

we are worth more than
the prices
placed on oil and on fear

it’s easy to forget this
with a foot pressed
hard against your throat

the ocean, at night

it was the year picasso began
painting monsters

it was the year he died

small objects in silent rooms,
always moving, smell of dust,
taste of rain against
dirty windows

you were asked to believe
in god

you were told

stood by the window waiting
for yr husband to come home,
but he never did,
and the children were crying
and then they were grown

maps were drawn,
plans of attack diagrammed

we would kill the killers
before they were even born

we would burn their fathers’
eyes with holy light, would
turn their mothers into
shadows of contorted pain

we would win the war by
refusing to fight it

we would
bomb only civilians, only
mud hut villages, only straw
and bamboo churches, and
it was the year my
sister was born

it was the year i kissed you
for the first time

made all of those promises
that sounded just like lies

BLAH BLAH BLAH

words, new and old

cage of thorns

yellow flowers pasted onto
pale blue construction paper and
all of these complicated ideas
about love & suicide

lying to myself is easy

lying to others is necessary

wake up too early to the
ringing of my phone, to the voice
of my youngest son

snow at the end of march,
then it fades to rain

this will be the
day i drink the faucets dry

this will be the moment
of my ascension

streets lined with houses,
but no people

endless fields of dead grass
and splintered bones

stand there next to my oldest boy
and he says he’s not sorry for
any of the pain he’s caused
and his voice sounds
like my own

his presence might or
might not be imagined

all acts of grace
are torn apart so easily

in amber

walls of rooms filled w/ dust,
on floors, on hands and knees and blinded

sing w/ your heart

grow scars

this is the place, you see, this house
where the dying man lives, and
there is nothing any of us can do

no blood on the carpet, but a sense
that it could happen at any time

a window

a back yard filled w/ fireflies and twilight

stand there, barefoot, wide-eyed, emotions
carved from dark, sticky wood

speak names softly

breathe in the warmth of
overwhelming joy

stand as still as you can
until all laughter has stopped

fanfare, with trumpets

man in the purple shadows,
crucified, yellow skin, yellow sky,
and the taste of sugar on yr breasts

don’t talk about starvation

don’t worry about the math

lock the church doors and
set the bibles on fire

chop off the hands
and then the feet

let laughter swarm like puke up
out of yr mouth, out of yr nostrils

sing the song you know i love

faultline

my youngest son sick without warning
and so fuck all of your ideas about
benevolence & generosity

accept the fact that
anger is a generous gift

that fear has the texture of
splintered bones soaked in oil

of crows landing on your lover’s pale breasts

we are none of us on this page dead yet,
but listen

god is not the lie that will save you

sunday’s dust cannot be eaten

it’s the age of moths, you see

it’s the pale grey light of a dying sun
that we uselessly flutter around

give me the cure for cancer,
or leave me alone

give me mindless entertainment in 3D

read me the stories of my childhood

i couldn’t be the cripple i
am today without them

BECAUSE I SAID SO, DAMMIT

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WHAT TO WEAR DURING AN ORANGE ALERT

helix of compassion

spray paint your small hatred
on dirty walls

substitute anger for belief

blood is the gift
with or without war but
no one really cares about pain if it
isn’t their own

no one really cares about
poverty
if they have money in the bank

it’s simple

the word will always be less
than the thing it represents

the thing itself will always be
more useful if it can be
used as a weapon

what you need to do is
consider poetry a sign of
weakness

consider poets
the enemies of action

kill them like you would
any other coward

in the kingdom of cowards

and then another night
and then another

not loneliness, really,
and not sorrow

desperation, maybe, which eventually
becomes a type of numbness

nails driven into walls over doorways,
and what the hell used to hang
on any of them?

nothing comes to mind

easier to leave them
where they are

easier to let things
fall apart at their own pace

sit in the hall and
watch the children sleep

listen to the wind

all possible endings are
out there somewhere

falling from great heights into vast oceans

strange standing here naked
with a gun to my head,
but this is the new world

wanted to move out to california,
but i was tied to this house, to
this job, to these children

woke up sweating and terrified
from a dream with no meaning

heard water in the basement

tasted rot, tasted decay

not sunlight, you understand,
but this numbing sensation
of suffocation

this false hope of
50 degree afternoons
at the beginning of february

the threat of freezing to death
replaced by the threat
of drowning

the sensation of rust flaking
down from great heights
onto bare skin

and did i mention the gun?

can you picture the hills
all painted a
soft, despairing grey?

we will never be more in
love than we are at this moment

we will never be more alone

choose, but then keep
your choice a secret

malachi (2)

all of these small cancers
and all of these smoldering remains
and all of the bodies

all of the ways that each one
matters more than war

and these words
which do nothing but scratch feebly
at locked doors

these dogs
who are starving slowly

who are chained to the passing days

and this is not a poem but
an explanation
or possibly an apology

it's my mind
refusing to sit still while
the first big storm of the year
approaches

and there is a man who writes to say
that he can't make sense of
any of this

you need punctuation
he says
and you need flow
and you need to stop worrying
pollock's bones

and there is a four year-old boy
on fire
on the other side of town

his mother held back by the neighbors
while the roof collapses

some small tragedy with no meaning
and maybe these are all we
have left in this year of election

streets littered
with the corpses of soldiers or
this man who murders his
pregnant wife

the woman he fucked
two months earlier who says she
just wants to be left alone

who says the walrus was paul

says you have to look for the clues

the open hand or the third eye
or the burning cross

the way america is defined
by its history

the way christ's teeth have been
filed down to dirty yellow points

and do you fall to your knees when
he smiles
or do you turn away in shame?

consider your answer

consider the act of rape being
filmed for the internet

the way names are kept hidden
out of fear
and out of shame

your children growing up with
nothing more than
the wreckage you've left them

one for lisa, stoned

try to help and you
fuck things up even more and
so you stop trying to help

this is the way

these are the starving orphans
of the world and the
battered mothers and the
abused babies

wheels
within wheels

gears clotted with
rust and with blood

this woman next to you
in bed who says show me how
much you love me over and
over but all you do is
hurt each other

all you do is hurt

there is no shame
in turning away

For You

Sun through the blinds onto your body.
Sweat running down your breasts, music
everywhere. Loud, bigger than God, bolder,
and my fingers wet with your taste.

This is something from another room,
from a different town, and I carry it with
me instead of your name. Instead of your
face.

I stand at the window while you lie on
the bed. You touch yourself. You moan.
Things begin to fall apart.