lost painting, 1949

 

like small pieces of paper left in

the pouring rain, like words i love you
written on each one

the flood and then

the flood receding

destruction and the

thick stench of decay

the dull grey weight of hopelessness

all of your life dragged out to the curb

to be picked through by the
dirtbags, the looters, the men w/ their
heads of carrion birds
 

money in the pockets of

every politician
 

teenage sons and daughters

lining up to be fucked or
tied down to be raped

it’s a war, of course, and to pray for

one soldier’s survival is to
pray for the death of another

it’s a house on the eastern edge of

town where you live with your
ghosts and your fear of the future

no one meets you at the door after

work, no one kisses you goodnight,
no one offers to die for your sins

no one rushes into the room just as

you prepare to slash your wrists

no one calls you a coward when

you sit there doing nothing

too late, and w/out hope

later, then, in some other desperate

season, after i’d told you i loved you,
after it became a lie

clouds, probably,

or shades of grey
 

an absence of shadows

an abundance of light,

but all of it dimmed and all
memories shaped by fear and loss

i knew you were gone,

but didn’t care

waited five years to remember your

heat & your touch

had the same dream over & over,

a woman with someone else’s face,
someone else’s body,
but i knew it was you
and i burned all of those poems

i destroyed all of those paintings

saw the man sitting there,

going blind

saw the soldiers tearing out his tongue

cutting off his children’s hands

a million bright red birds

flying from their wrists and
back into the past

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any war

miro

 

 

 

 

 

 

december poem, in february

no shallow end,

no lifeline

this is not an explanation,

you see,
this is my grandfather’s suicide

this is a letter to the fucker who

tried to get me fired twenty
years ago because i was sleeping
                           with his girlfriend

we grow up

and then we grow old

the wars don’t matter as long as

we can still afford to get drunk

this is a truth i

never see printed in the papers

this is blood in the

bathroom sink at 2:00 a.m.

i think about who i might

call, then end up just
going back to bed

in the morning,

the basement has flooded

a joan mitchell sunday afternoon

 

 

 

 

the pure light of lost afternoons

not black & white but

shades of grey,
smudges of dull green

amnesia

solitude

use the poems as bricks

and build yr own prison

stand in the empty field  out

past the railroad tracks
and wait to cast a shadow

wait for winter to end

refuse to die in yr

own small way

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dominion

sunlight like the fist of god
and then all of the days
i've wasted with my eyes closed

this quiet house on this
dead-end street in this
dying town

will you stand beside it
while it burns?

will you stand outside the
room of hanged men
and count backwards from twenty?

and what if it's here that i
finally tell you i love you?

i believe in words
no matter how often they fail me

i believe in july and in august
and that all of my promises
will be broken

look at my hands

both of them open and
both of them empty and
waiting for the moment to pass

waiting for their mistakes
to be forgiven

whatever you say in the silence
that surrounds us
never the poem that i
wanted to hear

 

 

 

the way it happens

this man on the bridge
falling or jumping
or holding a rock with both hands

dropping it
and the windshield of the car below
parting like violent water

the woman's face split in two
and your sister on the phone
saying she's pregnant

blood pooling on the floor where
you've left the idea of a mother
murdering her son with a butcher knife

the sky where it
pours itself over the landscape

the rock as it falls and the woman
as she turns to her husband and smiles

the pair of hands attached to a
person that no one knows

these fifteen crosses planted in
the ground in colorado
and the fact that nothing grows

your sister on the phone
saying she lost the baby

saying the blood
won't come off her hands
and the fact that nothing falls
out of the sky

the way she describes
the fetus to you

the idea that
none of these wars can ever
really be won

the man on the bridge jumping
and then falling
and then breaking through the ice

his apartment
and all of the places
a note was never left

all of the people it was
never addressed to

the body not found until spring

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SUNPOISON

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

the door locked, the house burned down

this pointless action,

this screaming, this putting your
fist through a window or
pulling a trigger

what a fucking bore

knowing suicides
knowing addicts

what a fucking hassle

these tiny crippled fingers always
grabbing at your throat

what a goddamned joke when

all days are the same

from THE SUM OF BROKEN PARTS

10.

i am the only child of

the one true god
and i am in hiding

i am silver and i am

gold in the age of famine

motherless and broken

stoned

no ladder to the sky no

more precious metals to
dig up from the earth
and so we die in the
world we’ve created

we are reborn into the

world we destroyed

a circle carved into

your lover’s flesh

a new day

wake up slowly and

without regret

crawl down the stairs

and out the back door

smile blindly into the

unforgiving sky
while our sons and
daughters burst into
                     flames

static

the sea of static

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

mary's house

yellow light into grey,

       end of november,

             almost warm,

          almost hopeful,

and when you’re tired of being an artist or

      when you’re tired of bleeding for minimum wage,

      when you’re tired of sorrow,

                           tired of breathing,

there’s always suicide and

it’s not like i’m telling you something new here

it’s not like i’m saying

anything at all

BRAVE   RETREAT

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

the lost and the missing

half-seen

ALL SIGNS POINT TO SORROW

HERE IS THE DOOR

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

psalm with the weight of nails through flesh

pale yellow sunlight on

the bleeding horse
and the shadows he casts swallowed by
the shadow of something larger

the houses ending suddenly where

these barren fields begin

wind and the smell of gasoline

and the sound of the interstate

the idea of somewhere better

which is probably a lie

there is no escaping disease

there is no escaping addiction

look at these men

who have died for god
and then look at the catholic church

look at the diseased fingers

of priests
picking through the bones of
the past

count the number
of children raped in the name of
salvation
 

there is

so much left to destroy

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falling from great heights into vast oceans

strange standing here naked

with a gun to my head,
but this is the new world

wanted to move out to california,

but i was tied to this house, to
this job, to these children

woke up sweating and terrified

from a dream with no meaning

heard water in the basement

tasted rot, tasted decay

not sunlight, you understand,

but this numbing sensation
of suffocation

this false hope of

50 degree afternoons
at the beginning of february

the threat of freezing to death

replaced by the threat
of drowning

the feeling of rust flaking

down from great heights
onto bare skin

and did i mention the gun?

can you picture the hills

all painted a
soft, despairing grey?

we will never be more in

love than we are at this moment

we will never be more alone

choose, but then keep

your choice a secret

talking about famine

FAMINE

 

 

 

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and we thought that when the war was over the blood would all flow backwards, and we were wrong

or living like a wounded animal, which

isn’t really the same thing as living,
but there you are in your collapsing hole
with your open wounds and your blood trail

here we are after 25 years of winter

½ a lifetime spent digging at the same

small patch of frozen ground with bare hands

low tide

faulty compass

and what i find out too late is

that anger isn’t enough

is that silence isn’t an alternative to

suicide, but a slower version of it and so
                                            we scream
 

we make ourselves such easy targets

open the door and all of that pale, blinding

sunlight just blows holes straight through you

w/ wings of clay

small gestures at the end of

summer, these anonymous lawns,
weed-choked flower beds, these
spider webs spun between branches
and the corners of windshields in
the first damp light of day, and
i would tell you here that i
love you but my voice would be
a whisper and you would be
3000 miles away

i would give this poem your

name as it’s own, but
futility gets old quickly

the children are hungry and

the ceiling cracked

the age of plague

nearly upon us
 
i will keep repeating this
until it becomes the truth

christ the saviour

another day of no sun of no

money no drugs and
in the silences between breaths
there is only waiting

in the fields that move from

the edges of town to the collapsing
hills there are only weeds
                           and mud
 

the ragged coughs of feral dogs

who have learned to walk on
their hind legs

have learned to fuck for pleasure

and to torture for even more and
will you remember where you were when
you heard about cobain’s suicide?

will you let your children keep the

skulls they find along the
freeway’s edge?

it’s a brave idea to not believe in

killing, but it won’t
help you at all down in juarez
because your tears will have nowhere
to go when the ditches are all
filled with corpses

those in power will wash themselves

clean in the blood of the weak

this is the only real truth

that history has to offer

ON FIRE

BURNING WORD

NEW NEWNESS

BRAVE RETREAT

the bleeding horse despairs in the face of all that cannot be changed

this wall of heat until you can no

longer clearly remember the darkest days
                                                of february

the laughter of children and

the hum of air conditioners

trickle of sweat

between your lover’s breasts

and what hope can you have for the future

when your religion is based on blood
and violence, and why would you kiss the
feet of a savior who wears a halo of ashes?

why would kiss the

feet of anyone at all?

listen
 

i am tired of the burning house

i am tired of the weeds

that devour the garden
 

once you move past the idea of

immortality, you begin to see clearly
 

once the last dollar has been spent, you

begin to see the attraction of despair
 

and do you understand why

bukowski’s death doesn’t matter?

do you understand he would have had

nothing but contempt for you?

and this is true of dali also, of course,

and of reagan, and once the villagers have
all been locked inside the church
the priests light the torches

they line up the bulldozers and they

explain that all true gods take sides

they turn politely away

while the women are raped

it’s a sad fucking world when the

only thing we can
think to beg for is forgiveness

gossamer cathedral

girl has a mother

but the mother is dead,
                  girl is dead,
carpet heavy with blood and,
outside,
the suffocating weight
of august sunlight

buzz of cicadas

poets with nothing better

to write about than
their own sad little lives

waiting for rain

and all afternoon the slow grinding

roar of factories pumping out
blood and despair and
all afternoon the stench of gasoline and
burning cars carried in on a steady
wind from the south

all afternoon the

sky a luminous silver, a delicate
shade of purple and the hills all
smudged & blurred against it

the sun at uncertain intervals

the tentative shadows of bare trees

across well-manicured lawns

when did you become so

fucking afraid of everything?

widow poem 1

silver sun in a

bone-white sky, which makes it
easy to confuse living
with being alive

helps the pills go down easier,

but the hands are still cold

the suicides refuse

to give up their beliefs

won’t laugh, won’t cry,
won’t give me any reasons
for what they’ve done

just stand their bleeding

onto all of my poems

TENETS OF DEMOCRACY

1.

no one you elect
gives a shit whether you
live or die as long as there is
profit to be made at
your expense



2.

no one you elect
gives a shit whether you
live or die as long as there is
profit to be made at
your expense



3.

no one you elect
gives a shit whether you
live or die as long as there is
profit to be made at
your expense

the fade out

nothing to say really
but no one trusts a quiet man

no one trusts a television that
isn’t turned on

need fucking NOISE need the
rush of caffeine and sugar, the
lies of politicians and the empty
platitudes of priests as they
rape your sons

need the color red and the
steady buzz of neon tubes

need a gun in each hand

so much killing to be done in
the space of
just one lifetime

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holes through me

or the horse in yr
heart swimming through
oceans of pain
or the clocks that tell
only lies

this is you in dali’s room,
the end of the war,
corpses caught in frozen mud

you want them to sing
but the song has no words

you want them to apologize
but the words have no meaning

the mouths are
filled with gravel

with bloodsoaked truths

take the ones you need and
call them yr own

rape the priests who
would do you harm

let their despair be
all you need

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vladimir kush, russian surrealist

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THE BLISS

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latest collection

with a cover that came out pretty nice, by accident.

in the kingdom of oblivion

keeping score

small hope like sunlight on
shimmering treetops, like a sky the color
of luminous dust

take the silence you’ve been given

hold it close to your heart

the children are tired of despair, are tired
of starvation, of revolution,
and so what are you going to do?

how far are you willing to crawl in a
desert of your own creation?

if i were a liar, i would tell you
there can be no wrong answers

if i were honest, i would turn away

do you remember the
life you had before?

do you remember the ocean?

i am a believer in easy escapes,
in walking away from pain and sorrow

i take comfort
in the gentle haze of distance

i find despair
around every corner

open your eyes, for christ’s sake

icarus, motherfucker

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4th of july

90 degrees by ten in the morning, dirty
silver sky and you were telling me i
was nothing and i was watching you bleed

i was a believer in
time and in distance

in failure

house smelled of decay, of brutal heat and
damp corners and we were waiting for the
parade with our flags in tatters

we were writing letters to the dead and
dreaming of answers that would never arrive

dog was chained to a
tree and starving to death

child playing at the edge of the road and
i was crawling across the bedroom floor

was looking in the other direction
when i heard someone call my name

looked back and the child was gone

NEW YEAR, NEW BOOK, SAME OLD DOWNWARD SPIRAL

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