Friday, July 03, 2020

and no one cares about your precious pain



writes me a letter,

tells his girlfriend she has to leave

 

tangled up in blue on the car radio,

says he never liked dylan

 

says he never liked the stones

 

steps onto the railing then out into the

open air above the

river but the story gets confused here

 

says he needs to tell it right

 

shows me his wrists but

they have no scars

 

sits on the bed in a foreclosed

room and pulls the trigger

 

girlfriend too stoned to move and

the kids watching tv and

that these are the last great days

 

the songs of angels written

across filthy walls

 

gotta eat gotta fuck gotta

pray but honey’s too wired to sleep

 

paces the halls of this cardboard

house and all it does is rain

 

no apologies

 

no saviors

 

stabbing in the parking lot of the

mini-mart on the first

day of the season of ascension, he

lies there bleeding, asks me

if i’ve got a light, if i’ve got a smoke,

and i tell him i just want to

get back home

 

ask him if this is the

right story and he just smiles

 

sound of sirens approaching as

i push my way through the

wolves and the vultures,

and i think about sunlight

 

i think about my

grandfather’s suicide

 

how blind hatred drags each of

us in all directions at once







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