feeling free
just for a minute, you and
her, her
boyfriend, his girlfriend,
bodies in a
room in the heat of august and
one of you
said or one of you meant to
say but
didn’t, said no talking and
the others
agreed, undressed and the baby slept
one of you was
sorry afterwards and
one of you was
stoned
brilliant sun
in a dust-grey
sky, but no
shadows
dead-end
streets lined with weeds, abandoned
factories
thick with
grease and
empty premonitions and
one of you
said this is a mistake even while you
were doing it
again, even while you moaned
someone else’s
name, while you screamed up
against the
ceiling and, outside, just the
buzz of
cicadas
just the
stillness of time slipping away
silence like a
smothering blanket and
one of you
started to say but then one of
you said no
talking, offered up lips or a breast,
the taste of
sweat and the hum of electricity,
too may or not
enough bodies and one of
you blind and
one of you deaf and
always the
absence of words
one of you
without hope or without dreams, taste of
bare flesh on
your tongue and the afternoon
brought up
hard against dirty windows, the need
for language a
thing of the past
(remembered
saying i love you but
not to who and
not how it brought you here)
(remembered
laughter)
one of you
feeling the press of someone else’s body
on either side
of yours, hearing the news that the
bodies of 25
children had been found among the
dead, but this
was a different day and so
why do you
connect the two?
who is it that
says the pain will
help bring you
closer?
laughter,
maybe, one of you or maybe
two, and a
spilled drink
a broken glass
and blood, not much, a
small cut and
one of you licking the wound
and the silver
sun and a heavy shroud of haze
(time stopped
or spinning backwards)
(the one you
know to be you crawling
away on filthy
hands and raw knees)
a view of
powerlines and rooftops,
shimmering
trees and blurred hills, arms
around your
waist, a hand at your throat and
another
between your legs, a tongue, and
one of you
says wait, one of you says
stop, and nobody listens
one of you has
wings and one of
you wings
tattooed
one of you
roses, one of you sunflowers,
poppies, one
of you the black iris blues and
if there is no
father there can be no sin
(if there are
no ghosts
there is
nothing fear)
and one of you
says this out loud
and one of you
starts to cry and one
of you turns
away
one of you
still wants more
one of you
always will